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Sunday, January 17, 2010 10:10:22 PM
in nature, everything is structured, even what appears as randomness; there may be no difference. i heard a quote once that mathematics is the language of god. i would use this defense if i chose to study it.
i have sliced my knees by mistake with the razor in symmetrical spots. it didn't hurt either time, but reminded me of how clumsy i have always been with my body, throwing it against paved and woodland surfaces and stretching it against mountains, and gravely spots, and persistent classroom obstacles, and lifting heavy things into its softest spots. i am not graceful. the blood trickles so gently and sticks to my jeans. i like the feeling of fabric on hairless skin, and the small bleeding is not gruesome. it spun with the water into the drain and i stood fascinated by the living flow of color inside me. they say that under the skin it is blue.
i want to kiss the earth today. the sun has been generous these days, and i have remembered that i am alive in the light. the dogs want more space, and tsuki needs practice remembering that his $7000 dollar leg is actually functional.
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